Shukran !

Thank you!

This that is dedicated to all. This is for those who gave me birth, who gave is nourishment, who gave me support, who inspired me to do something special, who taught me how to do and who is reading my experience.

These all blogs are the experience of my life and those tales which I heard or seen and to my audience, I should thank them especially because of you all these experience are getting value. Whenever people tell me I read my blog and then I feel really proud but this proud is all provided by my audience rather than myself. I remember a friend who was with me full life with whom many experiences are linked with. I can tell the tales with him and I will not tell name but I hope he will read my blog one day will feel refresh with our story. I do remember we met on class 3 and until the school graduation, we were together. He was really polite and kind on that day and I can tell I was as well. when we joined government school after that some changes occurred in our life.

Situation and circumstances make many things change in our life. Nobody is good by birth and bad as well. We were from the same family background and same school. Teachers were also good and responsible as well but a number of students were huge mass due to government conflict and closing of boarding school. We were average students to whom complete observation of teacher was not important. I admit we used to steal other ball pen and papers indeed our parents well fully able to afford us but I realize we followed the wrong way due to lack of observation. We were polite students but we learnt to fight as well and dominant other as well. When we were in class 3/4 on those days mobile with the camera was just had launched to watching an adult movie we learnt. Sometimes I really get curious about other life and ask when they had watched an adult movie then obviously they will tell when they were class 6,7,8 but in our story, it's really hilarious. When we reached 5 class we started to take Cannabis on the occasion of Holi and Shivaratri. Later on, we learnt how to steal the passwords and how to make simple hacking. In this way, I got interested in the computer. I cannot claim I am perfect on computer use but He is the one who drove me to learn computer so whenever I will be able to use the computer I will never forget him. When we grew up we had to make a selection of a subject for school graduation and he had decided to select the Mathematics as optional and as a rivalry, I also selected the same subject and we used to compete for each other. He is a good guy and my friendship with him is a lesson to be good. Now we remain no longer kids and we realize how many bad things we had done unconsciously those should be corrected and by remembering those things I do follow the correct path. I know some ways from where kids will change their path of doing right but my readers if you have kids then try to read them how we drove to the wrong path whether they are also driven to the same way or not.  In any condition, I have no regret on my childhood because I enjoyed my days somehow either in the wrong way I had already known the colour of life. I think he should be thanked for two reasons, first, he makes me celebrate the life and inspire me to accept the challenge and learn how kids will wander the path of life and how we can prevent. So thank him a lot.

I have some blur memory about her who used to teach me ABCD on my childhood and I used to feign not to read but with full force, he used to teach me. She is my late aunt whom I always miss. I was in class 3 when she left this world. She had a son and after her demise, his father got married again and due to conflict and worst communication between the families relation got the end. When I asked why my name is named as girl name I don't want to be named with this name then my mom said my name was given by her and when I lose her I never wanted to change it. I started to like my name because it was given to me from the special person. After her marriage whenever she came back to us she always brings something to us. I still remember she used to bring clothes, sweets and many things. She was a very kind person in my life.

Thank you, brother. I miss him a lot. He is my brother as well as a friend. On every memory, he has a big role in my life. As much as I remember we were together in the maternal house. After one or two years we stay together he moved to his family and I still remember he had given a rickshaw to me when we were a kid. A blur memory with the colour of red I remember. He is a single son of his parents so whatever he wished his parents afforded and whatever he got he had gifted all to me. I had everything in my childhood may be god had provided in a different way but finally, everything reached to me. Indeed I was from a poor family but in childhood, I got a chance to play all types of toys. I still remember he had gifted me a brick game which was the most precious thing for those days, kids. Whenever he used to visit us he always brings something by telling for my brothers. Biologically I don't have an elder brother but he is the one who played this role in my life and I thank him again and again. He is the one who brings me out of village life and kept in his home and taught me about the WEB. I still remember he used to teach me how to use the internet. My first email Crazysuman99@yahoo.com was created by him. Don't ask me why we choose crazy for email, Its because all name was used and while creating ID we turned crazy to choose this name.

In my life, my maternal family had supported me a lot. My younger aunt had played a very Strong role in my life. When I finished school graduation she took me in her custody and sent me collage for the study of science. Ya'know if she is the one who convinced my parents to make me study and provide me with shelter and support during my study. It's my biggest fault I couldn't able to keep her trust continue but god is first she had done big things for me. She had wished to see me as a doctor but I am the one who chose the way of life by own decision and I wonder the path due to an immature decision. She always played a role as mother and aunt at the same time to me.  On every need whatever I had pointed she always fulfilled it. I feel lucky to have an aunt like her.

My parents are a hero to my life they had given me change to see this world and had provided the proper nourishment to my life. They had taken all pain of our and provided us with the heavenly life to us. I still remember we were poor family but my father labour and kindness makes our lifestyle good to better. I had realized how much pain he had hidden in his heart and how he had lived for us. Staying far away from family, handle the family and lead to the proper way, fulfil the need, become the good father, husband and grandfather as well. My son is growing better than my childhood. Indeed I lack a father company in my childhood but my son is getting everythinI what i really missed on my life. What I may not able to give to my son my father is giving everything to him so my father is my hero.

When my father returned back to the country after 3 years in Malaysia he took not many things and little bit sweets. I used to think another people are bringing that those etc and i always think my father is greedy. but the time came  to be again and when my vacation came i can tell i had nothing at all. Indeed i was earning money more than father but i had nothing bought then i realized what my father had done that was more than enough. Cu,rrently i haven't finished 2 years but i am not able to keep stay my self more than this year but i should remember my father had spent 3 years without any complain. For o,ur sake he spent his life and how much I earn i can't pay it back. I feel very bad on this term. Thank you soo much my hero. I love you for ever.